PROLOGUE
ON THE NIGHT WHEN GEORGE AND IRENE WERE BORN, THE SUN SET in a boil of red-orange ribbons across the Ohio sky. The people of Toledo looked out their western- facing windows at the night, buttoned the collars of their pajamas against the cold, and closed the blinds as darkness fell. They lay down flat in their beds and began to sleep. Some turned over on their sides, first some punched their pillows, and some sighed. But sleep came for them all, one by one, and they slid under it willingly. No one fought. No one refused. Sleeping, they lost track of what was going on. They were no longer in Toledo, but in Paris or in the past, on the moon or in a book they’d read. Behind closed eyes and sleeping faces, they were gone.
Into what deep well did they all fall, single file? On what small ledge did each waver, and then drop down from waking into dreaming, down from life to death? A man who falls asleep is like a diver who slips from the air into the water. Yet through it all, the sleeping man’s body stays put, under a thin sheet, straight and flat. You could put his whole body in a box. You could put the box into the ground.
Sleep is a shallow death we practice every night. City after city, as the earth turns and rolls around the sun, we lie down and close our eyes. We try out this thing, death, for an eight- hour stretch. New York, Toledo, Dallas, Los Angeles: we all go down. Our sleeping minds blur the boundaries between our bodies and our idea of the world into what would otherwise be madness. In sleep we have no senses but imagined senses, no grasp on fate except a lunatic’s idea of control. Being crazy is like being asleep, and being asleep is like dying. It’s just like dying, because the body needs to do it. It has no choice.
By the time the people of Toledo actually die, they will have practiced it thousands of times. The sense of going under will be familiar. The sense of slipping loose from sanity will be no stranger. They will be very good at dying, by the time they get to do it. So good, it will be absolutely irreversible. To everyone, this seems like a good idea. On the night that George and Irene were born, the city was silenced by the effort of sleep, and all the astronomers and astrologers, and all the preachers and historians, and all the girls and boys had gone into the dark.
There was one hospital in the city of Toledo, a box of light and nervous energy in the sleeping world. Inside, the people were wide awake. In the maternity ward, two mothers pushed and strained to give birth. There was a lot of grunting, a few tense moments, several people counted to ten, and then the babies emerged, full of love and covered in blood. The mothers that birthed them smiled at each other. These births had been carefully arranged.
George and Irene were born to be together.
The night sky was dark and windy from the stars exploding. But when the babies came out, they were perfect: a boy and a girl. The wide- awake nurses even said how beautiful and big and healthy they were. George and Irene didn’t look alike. Nor do gods look like humans, or heaven like the earth. They were the same age, exactly. Not an older and a younger twin, but the same twin repeated. It’s very difficult to produce twin souls. It’s not just a matter of double strollers and mega– diaper packs. There are subtleties and manipulations, and there are moments of distress, when it all seems like it won’t work out correctly. When you think about it, how many times have twin souls been successfully created? Look at Antony and
Cleopatra. Now there was a botched project.
Look at Castor and Pollux; they ate each other in the end. At least, people think they did. But maybe they sat down together on an unmade bed, and began to kiss, and covered each other’s mouths with their mouths, and began to breathe, in and out, holding each other around the neck, and taking each other’s carbon dioxide, until their eyes bugged out and they were gone.
As for the twin souls of George and Irene, this is their story. How they met on earth, and how they slept and practiced for their deaths, night after night, and met in certain dreams, and came to love and lose each other, and live on.
HOW TO TELL TOLEDO FROM THE NIGHT SKY. Copyright © 2014 by Lydia Netzer.
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