Diddy recently reflected on this upcoming Mother’s Day, which will be his first without his late ex-girlfriend Kim Porter.
During an audio recording from his interview with Essence, the rapper, born Sean Combs, discussed life without Porter, who was the mother of four of his children.
“Mother’s Day is going to hurt,” said Combs, who is on the magazine’s May cover alongside his children. “They say time heals all wounds. When it comes to mothers, I don’t think that’s the case. That’s not a negative thing, because as people, we need wounds. You need something to sting you sometimes, and keep you on point and teach you a lesson.”
At one point during the interview, he broke down crying.
“I don’t know what I’m going to do,” he said tearfully. “I’m going to figure something out though. This hurts so much. I know that people want to hear the good stuff, but it hurts and there ain’t no way around that.”
The mogul also discussed his relationship with Porter, whom he dated on-and-off from 1994 to 2007.
He said he had no regrets, although he took some things for granted.
“I don’t have no regrets how things went,” he said. “They went the way God wanted them to go, but I was playing with love. It’s not really to be played with. I definitely took for granted that she would be with me forever. I took for granted that something like this could happen.”
Last November, Porter, who was an actress and model, was found dead in her Los Angeles home. She died of lobar pneumonia at 47. Her memorial and burial service was held in her Columbus, Georgia hometown.
She had four children, including singer and actor Quincy Brown, 27, who appears on the Atlanta-filmed Fox series “Star,” and three of Combs' kids, Christian, 21, and 12-year-old twin girls D'Lila Star and Jessie James.
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