She woke up alone in a cold, white room.

Am I dead? she wondered. Is this heaven?

Nikole Morrow-Pettus, recovering from an emergency hysterectomy following an emergency C-section, was not in heaven, but she had been through hell. Pain, loss and disappointment had stalked her for years, a trio of wraiths that seemed to arrive at the worst possible moments, stealing her joy.

The Bible says God gives us only the burdens we are able to bear, and Nikole bore burdens that might have crushed a weaker spirit. Her difficult delivery followed a string of tragedies that would leave bruise marks on anyone’s soul.

When Montgomery Grey Pettus arrived at Piedmont Hospital on Jan. 5, he was 7 pounds and 14 ounces of perfection, a gift of happiness that followed years of sorrow, the answer to prayers Nikole had tucked away like a fading love letter, never to be read again.